Here I am. 10.5 hours in to my 12.5 hour overnight shift at work. It's 5:30 a.m. and I continue to do rounds and "head checks" every half hour; which becomes every fifteen minutes at 6 a.m.
It has been quite a different experience for me. Easy and difficult, comfortable and uncomfortable all simultaneously. Once I finished up the odds and ends of paperwork and other nightly duties, I painted my nails, ate a snack, read some good reading from Christina Sell's "Yoga from the Inside Out", and then I put in a movie on the computer. The movie is called "Peaceful Warrior". It's about a college gymnast who seeks out help for becoming all he can be, not realizing that the help he asked for was going to change his view on life forever. The whole movie was about (get ready for it!) being in the moment. *gasp*! For real. Somehow, I manage to pick out these types of movies that have deep underlying messages for me. Anyway, if you want to know how he does at the Olympic trials, I suggest you watch the movie....or I actually just suggest you watch the movie, just because it happens to be a really good one. Just putting that out there.
The message I received from this movie, was that, whatever you ask the universe or God, or your higher power for, you will receive. It's definitely wise to think about how you might word what you ask for, because honestly, what you think is what you get. It doesn't matter what you might think you are asking for. Example: "I want icecream" is the same as "I don't want icecream". Why? you ask...well, when either statement comes out of a person's mouth, what visual are they making in their mind? Right! ICECREAM! (maybe that was a horrible example, because I'm lactose intolerant, but you get what I am saying, right?)
Moving along...
I watched the sun rise. I see rabbits eating the grass; there are actually a ton of them; they are like rabbits; everywhere. :)'
I felt like a peaceful warrior, just trying to make it through the night; and here I am...I made it through the night. The sun has risen, and the day is new. Whether I slept last night or not, the day is new. I start over, yet again. It's all about being in the present moment, not fearing the future, being anxious over the past, or feeling helpless because I can't control certain aspects of my life...or can I? What if just by me saying "I can't control", I am subliminally limiting myself as a human being. So maybe the best thing for anyone and everyone is to never say never, to stop saying "I can", and to pursue life in the most positive manner possible.
I hope I am making some sense here...
This is all I'm going to write for now; now, it's back to the rounds, and my last couple of hours of work.
I deeply value my job. I'm so grateful and so fortunate; no matter how emotionally exhausting it can be sometimes, every bit of it is worth every ounce of my energy that goes in to it. It's love that keeps me pushing forward and holding steady. Love and a peaceful, focused mind. :)
Blessings.
It has been quite a different experience for me. Easy and difficult, comfortable and uncomfortable all simultaneously. Once I finished up the odds and ends of paperwork and other nightly duties, I painted my nails, ate a snack, read some good reading from Christina Sell's "Yoga from the Inside Out", and then I put in a movie on the computer. The movie is called "Peaceful Warrior". It's about a college gymnast who seeks out help for becoming all he can be, not realizing that the help he asked for was going to change his view on life forever. The whole movie was about (get ready for it!) being in the moment. *gasp*! For real. Somehow, I manage to pick out these types of movies that have deep underlying messages for me. Anyway, if you want to know how he does at the Olympic trials, I suggest you watch the movie....or I actually just suggest you watch the movie, just because it happens to be a really good one. Just putting that out there.
The message I received from this movie, was that, whatever you ask the universe or God, or your higher power for, you will receive. It's definitely wise to think about how you might word what you ask for, because honestly, what you think is what you get. It doesn't matter what you might think you are asking for. Example: "I want icecream" is the same as "I don't want icecream". Why? you ask...well, when either statement comes out of a person's mouth, what visual are they making in their mind? Right! ICECREAM! (maybe that was a horrible example, because I'm lactose intolerant, but you get what I am saying, right?)
Moving along...
I watched the sun rise. I see rabbits eating the grass; there are actually a ton of them; they are like rabbits; everywhere. :)'
I felt like a peaceful warrior, just trying to make it through the night; and here I am...I made it through the night. The sun has risen, and the day is new. Whether I slept last night or not, the day is new. I start over, yet again. It's all about being in the present moment, not fearing the future, being anxious over the past, or feeling helpless because I can't control certain aspects of my life...or can I? What if just by me saying "I can't control", I am subliminally limiting myself as a human being. So maybe the best thing for anyone and everyone is to never say never, to stop saying "I can", and to pursue life in the most positive manner possible.
I hope I am making some sense here...
This is all I'm going to write for now; now, it's back to the rounds, and my last couple of hours of work.
I deeply value my job. I'm so grateful and so fortunate; no matter how emotionally exhausting it can be sometimes, every bit of it is worth every ounce of my energy that goes in to it. It's love that keeps me pushing forward and holding steady. Love and a peaceful, focused mind. :)
Blessings.
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